Time to Go to Therapy
Today I met with a new psychiatrist. He wanted the whole story of my life, basically. I gave him a shortened version, just highlighting major events and what medications I took and when I took them.
He was especially interested in the abuse I received at the hands of my ex husband. He wanted details, and so I shared, more than what I shared in "My Story" on my bipolar site. I actually cried when I was talking about it, and that surprised me, because I thought I had become a pretty strong person who didn't cry much anymore.
He added a medication to my regimen, and told me to get therapy. I told him that therapy didn't work for me in the past; that I would just whine about my problems and go around in circles. He said "You didn't have a good therapist."
So it looks like I will be back in therapy soon. Hopefully it will work this time.
I realized I've been spending a long time building this site to help other abuse victims but I haven't helped myself.
He was especially interested in the abuse I received at the hands of my ex husband. He wanted details, and so I shared, more than what I shared in "My Story" on my bipolar site. I actually cried when I was talking about it, and that surprised me, because I thought I had become a pretty strong person who didn't cry much anymore.
He added a medication to my regimen, and told me to get therapy. I told him that therapy didn't work for me in the past; that I would just whine about my problems and go around in circles. He said "You didn't have a good therapist."
So it looks like I will be back in therapy soon. Hopefully it will work this time.
I realized I've been spending a long time building this site to help other abuse victims but I haven't helped myself.
Yes, it is probably time for you to get the help you need. Look forward to your future posts with progress in therapy. Thanks for sharing from your heart and building this blog. Blessings.
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Thanks for the encouragement. I think I will call and make an appointment today. I have so many issues going on; I just found out that I may have diabetes. I have a doctor's appointment on the 20th for that.
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First of all I want to say that you can still be a strong person and cry. I've found that when I DON'T feel the feelings, it really gets in my way. Second, I wonder if you will get a chance to work with a therapist that knows about trauma. I agree, I don't just like talking around in circles. Best wishes with the new therapist.
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